Love's Song

I've always felt comfortable 

Singing 

Not always comfortable

Speaking

A Cameroonian dancer once spoke these words 

(accompanied by a wide grin)

as we danced in a drum circle:

"You have music in your veins!"

Yes, yes!

(and my son said, "Mom you belong in Africa!")

Yes, and yes!

Life is rhythm

Rhythm is life

A constant flow

That I feel

I've had the thought

"if I ever lost my voice:

if I could no longer sing,

I could not live"

I'm still breathing

and fairly coherent

so I am, indeed,

Still living

I've experienced difficulties

with my voice over the years

I wrote of them in a post last year*

I carry a great deal of fear

around my throat and voice

Yesterday, I was reading

Dylan Morrison's, Prodigal Prophet**

This author has also had voice issues

He found a book which speaks of

possible underlying reasons for physical symptoms.

As I read the following words in Dylan Morrison's book

They had a profound effect on me

Cutting straight to the heart

"Chronic laryngitis was described as a form of self-repression experienced by those with a vital message to tell, who sadly suffered from low self-esteem.  Now I understood:  God had called me to speak His words to the hurting and lonely but I’d shied away from the task due to my false sense of humility.  My health had suffered as a result.  

Clearly I was to speak out all that I sensed and felt."

"I now realized why I had to tell my story, 

this book being the fruit of that simple revelation."

(Prodigal Prophet, p.209)

After reading the above, I searched the internet 

and found this on a website regarding 

psychological causes for physiological maladies:

"Loss of voice is a message from the body

 that you fear communicating vocally."

"The throat is the energy center relating to creativity and it must be kept open for creativity to flow through every area of your life."***

Quite honestly, I don't know exactly what this means for me.

I do know that I have been experiencing deep transformations

in recent years, and especially in recent weeks.

I continue on my journey to be ever more sensitive to Love within me

To draw ever nearer to my Source

I am being led to deeper stillness within

To walk more slowly (even when I run!)

To notice 

To find pleasure in Now

Always

(so easy to envision and accomplish, when I'm not sad or in pain!)

I am learning to smile, always

From within

In the midst of darkness

(mustn't deny what is . . . not judge it)

I feel the call to sing my song

Whatever that may be

(and I fear, still, that my physical voice will not be up to the task)

We each have a song . . . a dance . . . a poem

Which is only ours****

This is our life journey, is it not?

To recognize . . . 

The dance steps that are ours,

Our life song's melody, 

Our poetic pentameter?!

The source for all of these 

Is our Source

Which is Love

I listen for my song.

One only I can recognize

and only my voice can express

I am singing what I know

Will sing more as it is received
Recognized

I might not always understand

Surely, I will not

I pray that Love will be received

I trust my fears will not prevent

Love's song from flowing

I walk . . . I dance . . . I smile

Within

Joyful expectations

Fill me

Oh, throat of mine;

Be free!

Adventure awaits!

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*http://theeternaldance.blogspot.com/2011/01/my-voice.html

**https://www.facebook.com/AuthorDylanMorrison

***http://www.ecoutetoncorps.com/ressources_en_ligne/definition_20_maladies_e.php

****http://theeternaldance.blogspot.com/2011/01/be-bird.html