One more day of not knowing;
of being blissfully? ignorant.
My mouth seems to be having a harder time forming words the last few days (an HD symptom) . . . but, it's probably just psychosomatic. And I notice I bump into walls sometimes . . .
I'm thinking that if the results are negative, I'll be grateful to "only" have chronic fatigue syndrome.
If I do have HD, I will be receiving an even greater opportunity to learn trust and peace . . . to have grace with myself . . . and a whole lot more.
I remembered a very important thing to tell myself whenever I start to fear the future.
For some reason, saying or thinking those words really helps me stay in the moment. All I ever have is now.
I feel so free when I stay here . . . now . . . in today.
Everything is okay with me.
This is true, even if I'm in pain or have other ailments.
I can be okay in the midst of whatever is happening right now.
I have so many good things and good people around me.
I live in a place I love with sunshine and mountains and desert . . .
I have wonderful wind chimes (tuned to the key of A) playing outside my window.
I have family and friends who love me.
So, whatever the results . . .
I plan on making a big sign for myself that reminds me to check out where my feet are.
If they're in today, that's where I'll stay.
(with ongoing practice)
Where are your feet? Where's your head?